30.11.12

Chapter 519


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I always need to be reminded of this. No matter what is going on in my life, I tend to forget how much sincere prayer makes all the difference. 

I'm about to share something with you all that I haven't been very open with.. with anyone really. I feel I need to write about it to make any progress on my situation. I have anxiety. I think some people don't fully understand what anxiety means. For me it is mainly focused around fear. I have so many fears and I let them take control. The past few months I have gone through fear after fear and it has just come to the point where I am done. 

I am done with letting these fears take over my life. And I am finally ready to seek the help I need. This week I tried my hardest to turn these fears over to my Heavenly Father. I know that with His help I can get through this. But unfortunately He isn't the only thing that will help me to overcome. I need extra help. Professional help. Now I am not going to see someone, not at this point, but I am finally willing to read the books my mom has encouraged me to read. After months of thinking I don't need the help, I am finally willing to get that help.

It's funny because I am actually doing better. This week has really opened my eyes. I haven't even opened the books yet. Sometimes I guess we just need to accept that we have a problem, and are willing to change it. 

And to think it all started with a simple prayer. 

Bekah

29.11.12

Chapter 518

Day 321 - November 27, 2012
Day 322 - November 28, 2012
Day 323 - November 29, 2012
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The past few days have been a blast. I have loved every second of excitement spent with Jenn. I had a lot of thinking and praying to do about one particular thing, and I am finally at peace with a lot of the stress that has been in my life in the past few weeks.

 I love the feeling of having a question an answered. Rereading my patriarchal blessing over and over again, then noticing something that I had never thought of before. I'm very much looking forward to the next steps in my life. Still not completely sure what they will be, but I am ready now. No more running, no more doubting and no more fear. 

Bekah

28.11.12

Chapter 517

Jenn and I laughed WAY too hard for way too long about every single one of these.

I seriously can't stop laughing!!!

All of them are just so dang funny!

Bekah

27.11.12

Chapter 516

I am writing this post while I hear one of my bestest friends talk to her wonderful boy for the first time after 2 whole years! She's been freaking out for the past couple weeks, and it has been so precious! Once she came home from her placement at the hospital we hurried to my guest room (she's living with me for the week), grabbed her phone and talked while we waited for his call. 

Then after concluding that he would call tomorrow, headed downstairs to the kitchen. And of course right when we were planning mischievous ways to get his brother to call her and as she puts a spoonful of ice cream to her mouth, the phone rings. 

All I can hear from her room is giggles and adorable little conversations. Two years. As if it's been two years. Two years that she has been a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Two years that we've known each other. Two years since she has seen the boy she is in love with. 
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Aren't they just the cutest?! 

I can't wait to finally meet you, Jonan Hatt. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't know this gem of a girl!

So here's to future double dates, and being couple best friends! Yes that is correct, my best friend's boyfriend is in fact close friends with my boyfriend. Perfection gift wrapped in a box!

Bekah

26.11.12

Chapter 515

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Saturday

Let me tell you a bit about my Saturday:
I had to read like a beast. I borrowed a book from my campus library for an assignment, but because it was on reserve I could only have it for 24hrs. So lots of reading. It's a good thing the book was absolutely incredible!! I seriously recommend it to any Linguistic major, or even anyone in general. Such a page turner, and it just boggled my mind! Genie is such a fascinating girl!

Then I had to go back to campus to return the book. So since I was already in the general area, I went downtown and bought some Christmas gifts (and maybe a top for myself!). 

That evening, Brigitte, Jess, Caitlyn and I went to the Santa Claus parade in Orleans. Unfortunately it was freezing cold, and we couldn't stay to see Santa. We couldn't feel our toes, so we ran back to the car, drove to my house, and sprawled over our vents to warm up! 

Then it was time for some late dinner and a girls night. Our movie of choice?
LEGALLY BLOND! 
I just adore that movie, and I hadn't watched it in years!!!! 

Weekends are my favourite. Nights with the girls from Big Apple, family dinner, games, and church. 

Bekah

Chapter 514

Day 319 - November 25, 2012
Day 320 - November 26, 2012
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Woke up this morning to find snow on the ground. It snowed one month exactly before Christmas!!!! And here was me thinking we were going to be green until mid-December!

Two things I know for certain:
1. I am going to be wearing my boots and parka until March now
2. It's time to bring out the fuzzy socks.

Bekah

24.11.12

Chapter 513

Day 318 - November 24, 2012
Let me give you the greatest smoothie recipe ever! So here it is my breakfast every morning: 
Kefir Smoothie
1. 1/2 cup of Kefir
2. 1/2 cup of milk
3. 1 tbsp of flaxseed oil
4. 1 tbsp of agave nectar
5. 1 cup of frozen fruit
6. Blend together.
And VOILA!
Most delicious, feeling and healthy breakfast ever!!

Bekah

23.11.12

Chapter 512

Day 317 - November 23, 2012
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I can't believe Christmas is almost a month away! Every year it seems to go by faster and faster. It's just crazy! I love my home no matter what time of year, but I just get excited to see it everyday with Christmas decorations!!! 

Bekah

Chapter 511


I absolutely adore everything about this quote. The handwriting, the colours (if you haven't noticed I'm a black and white kind of gal!), the fact that it was said by Roald Dahl, and the quote itself!!!!!!!
Hope you all have a wonderful Friday!

Bekah

22.11.12

Chapter 510

Day 316 - November 22, 2012
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Today I had one of those days. Hold your horses, it was a good day. I know, usually when I say that phrase I go off on some emotional rant, but not today :) I wanted a change. My blog has been growing in the past couple months, and I thought it was time for a new blog design. So I spent the afternoon getting inspiration, and came up with this! I might be doing some more tweaking, but for now I am pleased with it!

I'm thinking of doing a Q&A post. I'd love to get any questions from you. I'll be sure to post who asked what questions, so you all can get some visits to your blog. 
So ask away! Either leave a comment, or send me an email (rebekahannewagner@gmail.com), and I will post my answers. I may do a answer per post, or a video, or just one post with them all. 

Bekah

21.11.12

Chapter 509

Day 315 - November 21, 2012
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I love Wednesday mornings. I get to sleep in, do a bit of studying, get caught up on my favourite blogs,  lounge in my PJs for a bit, take my time getting ready, and then head off to school :)

I never thought Wednesdays would be one of my favourite days of the week, but this semester it is too perfect! Class, hangouts with Jenn, time with Alex, and institute choir.

Bekah

20.11.12

Chapter 508

Day 311 - November 17, 2012
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Day 313 - November 19, 2012
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This past weekend has been go go GO!
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Saturday
Pop tart snacks
Entertaining conversations with Dallin and Jenn (I swear Dallin needs to be a character on The Office. Just genius)
Mission pictures with Tyler
A Harvey's date
Dutch Blitz
Heart attacking Brigitte's door
Chatting with the recently engaged Lee and Carissa
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Sunday
Boy talks with Jenn
Church
Abbey made cute little handouts for the RS. I adore this talk to bits
Potluck
CES broadcast. AMAZING! Go watch it NOW!!
Games at Andrew and Kelsi's place
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Monday
Work
Found out my Assistant Manager is leaving Payless. I am officially the most experienced person at my job other than my manager.. weird.
Glow in the dark volleyball (SO painful. So many bruises today)
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Tuesday
Work
Meeting the new co-worker (Love her!)
Jamming on my ukulele
TV with momma

Bekah

16.11.12

Chapter 507

Day 310 - November 16, 2012
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I was looking through my closet and I noticed I have a problem. I love button-up blouses. And not only that, I have way too many statement necklaces! And together, they are just perfection. Always. Today in particular I feel like a Parisian..red lipstick, barret, barrel curls, black jeans and boots. C'est bien.
Today is the 21st birthday of the most incredible person I met in high school. There is nothing worse than growing apart from your best friend. Life gets busy. School, sports, jobs, church and boyfriends.  Meana Franco, you are gem and I miss you terribly! Happy birthday twin.
Olive you!

Bekah

15.11.12

Chapter 506

Day 309 - November 15, 2012
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Nothing better than having babysitting this little bundle for a few minutes.
I have a confession. I watched the trailer for "The Host" and I am strongly considering going to see it. I thought I was done with Stephanie Meyer. I read Twilight in high school and my hormonal adolescent self related perfectly to Bella.. but now, no. I vowed to never read the books again, simply because I enjoyed them, but I know now I would hate them to pieces. And since Meyer is not a solid author, I never had an interest in reading The Host. But after watching the trailer, I may do it. I know, call me crazy, or whatever else you want, but why not give it a chance?
Wednesday night has been designated as the "hang out with Jenn downtown" day. As we were walking around the market I had a sudden desire to work there. I don't know if it will ever happen, but there is just something about that place that I love!

Bekah

14.11.12

Chapter 505

Day 308 - November 14, 2012
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Last night was perfection. I love those nights where there are no solid plans. The only thing I knew was that I was going to be spending the time with someone very dear to me. Spent an hour and half walking around my little suburban town with Alex. I showed him my elementary school, high school, our old house, and gabbed about memories. Last night I cam to the conclusion that I not only love Ottawa, but I love Orleans! The amount of memories from school friends, to paper routes. It was just splendid!
I have a confession. I am addicted to the game Skip-Bo. We may have played the game for 3 hours straight. It's pretty ridiculous. Go play it. You'll understand :)

Bekah

13.11.12

Chapter 504

Day 307 - November 13, 2012
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Today the mail man brought some gems. My new winter boots, a cheque from the government of Canada, and my best friend's wedding reception invite. Only a few more weeks until we are reunited! I miss you dearly Laura, and I can't wait to meet your husband!

Bekah

12.11.12

Chapter 503

Day 305 - November 11, 2012
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Day 306 - November 12, 2012
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Last night the Christmas tree was decorated :) Gingerbread men, pumpkin bread, fudge and great company. Norah's first tree trimming, and Holly's last time putting the star on the tree.
And now you may all watch the newest trailer of Les Mis. Tears. No stopping it.

Bekah

10.11.12

Chapter 502

A friend just sent me this picture via Facebook.
Can't. Stop. Laughing.

Bekah

Chapter 501

Day 302 - November 8, 2012
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Day 303 - November 9, 2012
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Day 304 - November 10, 2012
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There is nothing better than hanging out with your RM best friend and everything is the way it was 2 years ago. Spending an evening with him and Brigitte, talking of old times, first dates, and playing Dutch Blitz made up the perfect Thursday.
Yesterday I got a text. A text I wasn't expecting. A text from someone very close to my heart. Someone I hurt, and hurt me back. I was terrified when he told me who it was. I thought we would fight, again. But it was an apology. He kept the letter I wrote him for 5 months. Kept it unopened, but he refused to throw it away. Finally after months of not knowing if he knew how sorry I was, we got the peace we both needed. Now this doesn't mean we are going to be BFFs again, but I feel like a load has finally been lifted. No more bitterness, no more anger and no more pain.
The tree is up!!!! Today is the day for setting everything up, and watching Hunger Games with my equivalent of Peeta. Tomorrow it is decorating with family and friends. It's beginning to look, smell and sound like Christmas. Well except for the lack of snow, but I'm ok with that :)

Bekah

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